Me and mySelf

I adore myself. And I unabashedly state that I'm a narcissist. I need no reason to get into self admiration. I can spend all day with myself and yet not get bored of myself. Sometimes this attitude of mine bothers me. How much am I in self love? Do I mean so much to myself that I do not bother about anyone else? God forbid, if there is a trying situation I'm put in and I have to put someone over myself, Will I be able to? Or... would I ignore that person? I may say to myself that it will be the other person who will come before me, provided I love him/her more than myself. Yet, when I look at myself I'm just lost in self admiration. I can admire myself at length. My eyes, my hair, hands, feet I can just go on and on and on. I dunno if I can tire. Haven't so far.

I also wonder, "Is this what drove him away from me? Is it that he couldn't handle me? Or did he find it disgusting that I love myself so much??" I wonder... if it is wrong to indulge in myself. If it is not acceptable that I adore my own self so much.

Why I can't fall in love

For a very long time I was unable to understand as to what stops me from getting married to someone whom my parents won't approve. For a really long time I convinced myself that all said and done, I'm not a rebel. In fact when a friend of mine had made a statement as ,"Why doesn't she understand that if her parents are going to be hurt from our marriage then it will only last for a few years. Soon they'll forget everything and accept us. And this way all of us shall live happily ever after. But if she marries the guy her parents want her to she will not be happy as she is in love with me. Which will eventually leave everyone unhappy. Why is she unable to understand the simple logic? Why does she wanna leave me for her parents not approving? "

At that moment I felt that the guy was right. That eventually parents shall forgive and forget. May be the girl should have heeded to him. Yet I was not completely convinced. That confused me further. And only last week while returning from office did I understand what was subconsiously stopping me all this while in understandng the logic stated above. Parent, I may never have understood the feeling of being one by just observing mine. This friend of mine, who is the mom to a lovely year old gal, helps me see and understand my parents in a very different perspective. Her daughter is just one. And yet, the mother has a lot of expectations built in inadvertantly. She constantly repeats, more so to herself, that she has no idea how her daughter will turn up. And that she has no expectations from her daughter. But she can't stop herself from tryin to teach her daughter the values that she has imbibed from her parents. And that made me realise, may be this affection and faith that parents uphold in their children. They try their best to educate us so that we turn out to be good(according to their dictionary) people. And it is that faith that I did not wish to shatter.

Sonu Nigam

I am amzed with the person. I have adored many many of his songs in Hindi. I have spent months listening to the songs from his hindi albums through out my stay at office. But I had never imagined he would sing for the Kannada film industry. When I heard his singing in Huchha n Mungaru MaLe, the songs did touch me. But not the way his songs in hindi did. I'd always say that his hindi songs were the same as wat honey is to my tongue. Off late his hold on Kannada has improved. But I never imagined that he would go for an album in Kannada. Frankly, I do not know of a Kannada singer having of his or her own album. I have only heard their film songs. So this happenend to be more of a shock than surprise to me. Everytime I heard the bollywood singers sing Kannada songs I'd feel a li'l sorry for the talent here. They're good, yet. Lately I did get to listen to really good Kannada music. Otherwise I do not shy away from advicing people from keeping away from Kannada movies or songs. Yet, I do not have many recent time movies that I can recommend to any of my friends. But the songs have been very impressive. Brilliant singing with good music composition. But an album from Sonu!! Something I still can't believe. He gets a Filmfare for playback singing in Kannada.

May be some people are always striving for more, and always find new roads to cover. I now admire him all the more and wish him more and more success.

Taking Control

If you are feeling helpless that nothing is going your way.

If you see that all that you planned is going awary. And you wish that you could do something so that things can fall back in place. So that you can take control over things...

then go ahead...

reach for the T.V. remote.

This may not make things get back on track, but at least you shall be in control of something.

Love Aaj Kal

I watched the movie and happened to like it. This movie would seem a li'l unrealistic and over the top for many coz they would not have recognised the sentiment that it tried to convey. Love still evades many of us. As it has no standard definition against which we can measure our emotions. We would always doubt our feelings for that someone special coz we do not feel the same way as that friend of ours feels for his gal or her man.

Anyway, one of the reasons that I may have liked the movie is coz I could relate to it. I know a couple who are being practically stupid. And I wish they have a better climax than the movie. They are ready to forgo their love. Whatever be their reasons, it is not possible to replace someone in your heart. It's not one of your photo frames or mobile wallpaper. When your permission wasn't sought before the person was lead into your heart, then why do you perceive that you have the ability to drive the person out. I'm a practical person too. Yet I know the limitations of my mind, as well as hers. In my opinion, the only thing that every single person on earth wants is happiness in any and every form. So I understand that my conflict with my inner self can only make me miserable. And I for one, would not want to be miserable for the rest of my life. I have tried talking to her about this and I see that have failed. I know very well that if they part ways and decide to marry someone else, they shall both be miserable. So shall their spouses. And to see a friend go through pain, isn't very comforting.

I find that lately there are a lot more couples who get involved and at a later point realise that they were not meant for each other. I do not understand how the statement "not meant for each other" can make any sense to anyone. If two complete strangers can get married with the hope and desire of making it work, then what exactly is the problem with the courting couples? No wonder we've made loving someone so complicated that the next-gen wants to be satisfied with flings. No wonder!!

And about the movie, if you're a movie buff - no second thoughts, go get your tickets. For the ones who always wanna make sense or find a moral in the movie, you can find one hidden inside. You just need to have the keen eye. Watch it when it is screened at home. If you don't like it, you won't regret having wasted your money.

Silly mistake

                                 

Mr. Perfectionist makes a very silly mistake. He failed to check if the number that he'll tattoo on himself does really exist. Unfortunately for him, it does. Yet fortunately for him the person to whom it belongs is very understanding and doesn't plan to lodge a complaint. 

I wonder how such a simple detail was overlooked. Since this isn't the first movie to have caused problem to a commoner. 

New Year!

New hopes!

        New Desires! 

               New Dreams!

yet the same old wishes

                       that may the new year bring along 

more happiness, better health

                      good fortune and prosperity to all.

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