Fond Memories

Following are a few of my old compilations that I found. Bring back bitter-sweet memories of friends, being a paying guest and having new job. Of love found and lost. Of staggering, falling and then dusting ourselves up. My friends were the inspiration for most of my older compositions. Well, I did spend all my time with them.

The last bit, Broken Dreamz, I dedicate to Moni and her craziness. Guess it assimilates her passion :)

I never remember to forget you
I’ve tried to ward off your thoughts.
And yet I’ve had imaginary conversations with you, loads of times.
I’ve tried to hold back my urge to call you. To tell you that what happened was not
right. That what is happening isn’t good. Come let’s make it the best.
I’ve wanted to tell you how much I wish to see you, sit beside you and tell you all
that I’ve never been able to.
I’ve always wanted to hold your hand and walk along the long stretch where it’s no one but just you and me.
I’ve tried not to call you out of the fear of losing the only thing that I fondly hold, your cherished memories. And yet I try not to think of you.

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Uneventful are the days, Gloomy are the nights.
Thoughts only of you, None
otherwise.
Now that you’ve got away with my heart,
Life isn’t worth the
fight as long as we are apart.

Time and again,
Why does it pain,
When I try to convince,
I’m not in love with you?

Day in and day out,
It’s only your thought,
On my mind that crowds,
Leaving my heart wrapped in shroud.

All my attempts ceased,
My only desire,
Run away from this world,
And in your arms retire.

Broken Dreamz
Every time you tried coming closer to me I pushed you away.
Now that you've gone, far away, out of my reach, why do I long for you?
Why is it so hard for me to accept that you are no longer accessible to me?

In the morning, when I could no longer hold myself, I dialed your no. My heart sank when I heard that your number has been temporarily disconnected. I was lost, disappointed, felt betrayed, devastated. I did not know if I was happy that you have
moved on or sad that I may no longer matter to you. I always thought
that I had control over my heart and I was the one steering it. But now
I realize I can never take control of it. It goes the way it wishes to.
Never gives a thought about others, unlike the workings of our mind.
Now I wish I had told you, for once, that I love you. May be it wouldn't hurt as much.