Sunday, March 20, 2011

Where do I wish to belong?

It has been 3 months since I've come to the US. I like it here. I like being married and have enjoyed playing the role of a house wife for a while now. This sabbatical has given me the much needed break. Although it has only been 3 months I've been having thoughts about returning. And each time I'm unsure. I do want to get back to a place closer to my people. Every time my friends and family ask me about how I like it here in San Diego, my response has been "Not very different from Bangalore." So far it hasn't been very different. Except for the cleanliness factor and the rarely crowded places. Something that I'm sure most people appreciate. I like the fact that I don't have to look at the path while I'm walkin on the streets so that I don't step on trash or miss a step coz of uneven pavements. Crowded places have always bothered me. So staying here seems quite tempting. But since I have a more rational and less emotion thought process, when I try concluding I wanna stay here, the other part of me says 'go back to Bangalore, it's got almost everything that we have here'. That reminds me of the crowd and I wanna stay back here. I see my husband also go through the same dilemma. I guess it's the same with almost all the people away from home. I hope that someday soon we will be able to make up our minds.

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