Should every act of mine have a known and well defined reason? Why? Can't my actions be without a reason, at least known to me?
Each time mom mentions about a marriage proposal I feel as though I'm being stabbed. If I try making excuses not to see the guy, and if that not possible when I say a no to the proposal she starts off with talks that can very well be classified into emotional blackmailing. And I'm helpless against all this. I can do nothing about it, say not a single word against it or defending myself coz both of us know she is right; right with a reason. It makes me feel like cutting myself away from all the bonds. Run away to a far away place where no one knows me, no one would want to know me. Or better no one can even see or feel my presence. If I'm such a trouble for them then I'd rather not be their child. I don't want to married, for reasons unknown. Not that I'll never marry. But... there is some fear that creeps up each time I think of getting married.
I wish there was some way I could get rid of at least one of them, either marriage or the fear.
5 comments:
Oh man!! I totally second that.I feel exactly the same way.Sometimes I just don't have any valid resaons.Just that every cell in me is screaming out otherwise.How can u explain that to anyone??beats me...
First time when mom spoke to me about a proposal.. i was furious... and cried later on...
But now its no longer a problem...
Ur parents might just be worried about ur future... and yes we need to understand them... But ofcourse they need to understand too...
U can talk to ur mom about ur fears... May be she will understand... u can even let her help u get out of the fear.. or u might get sufficient time atleast
Hey!! Thanks. It feels better on knowing I'm not alone. I guess it's better to leave things to themselves.
get rid of the fear!
Neel... how I wish I had known how to get rid of it!!!
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