Thursday, August 10, 2006

I've lost myself

Lately I find myself getting easily irritable. Loosing my concentration at work or get too worried for no absolute reason. I find myself erring more than usual. I find I’m running away from people, avoid company, not wanting to talk to anyone. Even if I manage to think of something that I’d wanna tell, I end up asking myself “Why should I tell her THIS?” “why should he know about this?” “what is the value addition of knowing this?” As a result I stay non-existent though I do. And if I do, I either snap at people or end up with an argument. This is bad and makes me sad at the end of the day. And worse being all this isn’t me. I’m not someone who cannot do without company. But yes, I do enjoy the company of all my friends. I always have things to tell them. And lately the only company I wish to be in is my pet.

This is the list of effects. But what makes me feel helpless is that I have failed to recognize the cause of these effects. I want to be back to myself. The self who is more human than what I am at present.

3 comments:

MechRulez said...

If I am not wrong:
Cause: your work
Solution: Join yoga or meditation.
The best solution is sports (the best refresher).

PS: I am not telling this for fun.

Neel Arurkar said...

Stop watching Lost on Star ;-)

Unknown said...

:) The thing is there are times in life when we just need to be left alone... Not that we dont care for people anymore or that we dont need anyone any longer... Just that there is someone else within us who needs our attention more than anyone else does... :) Spend time with yourself when your soul asks for it re...