Don't tell me you never gambled, unless you aren't married yet. Love or arranged, you pray to the Lord, "God please let this work. Let us live happily ever after." Now if you are, you are lucky. If you aren't happy you are cursing your fate.
Now, do you agree that this is a gamble? Not yet? Then read on. My parents chose the guy for me. I never married him blind folded. I did my part of scrutiny and he seemed appealing. But now after certain time of being married I realize that things aren't as I thought they would be. There are small things in life that have now turned into huge problems. Small things like he not taking me out for evenings, not remembering my birthday, not wanting to go to my parents place, never having even the thought of getting me a rose, not giving me the attention I desire... Small things that make me feel he is not interested in me anymore. How long will I complain and demand for it? I'd give up some day. And start fearing that our marriage isn't going to last long. I want it to, but...
But I have no one to blame for it, neither him nor myself. Not even parents. They did their best. So only one that's left is my fate. Blame it. But it doesn't help. It doesn't fill up the hollow that's building up within me. Now I have absolutely no one to turn to. Friends, have their own life and problems to look into. How should they give time to me when they are fighting to make time for themselves?
What do I do now?
4 comments:
Its all in the game gal.All you can do is play and paly hard with all your heart.
Sometimes I hate such helplessness in me. Hope things don't ever turn sour.
Dreams are dreams coz they are not reality. Happiest is the moment when you see ur dream in reality.
One more thing..all those things(remembering b'days..etc)will mostly not happen.Cos Life is not a fairy tale.You better start accepting that otherwise disappointments will be huge.
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