Tuesday, March 28, 2006

Loote koi mann ka nagar banke mera saathi

I'm in love. How many times can I deny this to myself? Every time I try opposing this fact to myself my Self laughs at me and says "Whom are you trying to fool this time?" Yes. I can lie to the whole world but not to my Self. Wish I could.
Each time I say to my Self "Why doesn't he love me?" I get the same answer, "'Coz you are not the right person for him." And this thought is killing.
"If I am not right for him then I cannot be right for anyone. Why can't I be right just for him?"
I haven't got an answer to this yet. It hurts. But I like it this way. I don't ask for anything from anyone. I can live all my life with his thoughts and this pain. He nullifies it all. All I need is to see him smile at least once a day. That'll be all I ask of him. I wouldn't need anyone else as long as I have his thoughts to myself. I used to laugh at such dialogs in movies. But now I realize what it actually means.

Is it wrong to break someone's heart, even by mistake?? Will I have to pay back by having my heart broken?? And the same number of times I did??

Ayn Rand is an awesome author.

8 comments:

Neel Arurkar said...

He must have his own reasons I am sure.
"If I am not right for him then I cannot be right for anyone" : Pretty stupid thought. You deserve the best and not that stup.

Seema said...

Neel, how dare you call him a stupid :@??

Neel Arurkar said...

My apologies!

Seema said...

Apologies accepted

Caffeinism said...

did u write that or did Ayn Rand?

Seema said...

Hey!! Ayn Rand is an excellent author. This isn't her composition.

Caffeinism said...

then why mention her????

Seema said...

I just finished reading 'Fountain Head' written by her. Liked it a lot and wanted to let everyone know she's really very good.